this thing i have to do

a few years ago in china, joanna and i were wandering around xi'an one night looking for internet service. china at night is pretty and full of light. i dont know if she remembers this, but we went into a mcdonalds and we met a guy and a girl from australia, and they were backpacking through asia. and they invited us to the hostel they were staying at to use their internet. and on the walk back, they told us about backpacking. they didnt know when they were leaving xi'an or where they were going next, and the hostel looked fun. there were some drunk guys, and a girl reading an english-chinese dictionary on a couch. and a sign about free chinese noodle night the next day. and bunk beds. "no switching bunks please," it said. and i remember thinking that some day, i would be back to xi'an and i would stay in that hostel because i want to backpack. and i need someone to go with me. someone that i love, probably. through the last couple of years ive been trying to pin it on people. thats how i determine how much i like someone, actually. "they would be a great backpacker." i feel like im getting warmer. but...

here is something i will do: backpack through asia. i want to go to thailand, india, cambodia, china, japan, and malaysia. i am willing to expand (but not condense) this list.

i do not know when it will happen, but it will.

malaysia...this has been my computer desktop for years

cambodia...ever since emily went ive been reading about pol pot. that terrible man.

thailand...

and my favorite china.....we took this picture there